Breathing Easy

Grimm

Well, how about a little personal touch?

This was a thought that crossed my mind while I was watching my grandma walk ever closer to her inevitable future.

As I sit and stare the inevitable stares back
It happens every day all over the world but this is a close as I have come to it
It seems so powerful, so unchangeable
And also so delicate and gentle too
I feel like a four-year old sitting and having to pretend like everything is all right
While being completely helpless wanting to give all they have to change the situation
Another concept of the four year old becomes clear:
I don’t known how to act around the coming tragedy
I prance around excited its Christmas but deep down it feels like I’m walking on ever thinning ice
I’m 20 years old and this is the first sign of the reaper
Why do I have to experience this now?
I watch as Grammy, unable to move asks who enters the room
She sleeps, always and her hand trembling is the only sign of life she emits.
I just want to scream, because I don’t know what to do.
Alls I can do is leave it on the Lords hands but what then do I pray for?
For healing, but I don’t know if she’s saved? So I pray for salvation while I run out of time
God you have it all in your hands but she just looks so frail
Like she’s in so much pain she can’t bear it
Every day inching closer to the point when she can no longer fight
I want to fight for her, I do, and I pray for her whenever I remember,
But it seems as though this is a fight I cannot win
As she continues to grow smaller in stature, still keeping her wit about her
The plague in her bones wears her down too much.
The end is coming whether I think I can stop it or not.
I hear the drum
Boom
Boom
Boom
With my sword drawn I run out to a battle to face no one
The enemy cannot be defeated by me, nor any of my loved ones
So on my hands and knees I scream “Jesus!” into the very Earth He created.
I ram my sword into the Earth to remind my self I was there and retreat
It’s all in His very capable hands, Lord may your will be done on Earth as it is in heaven

posted by Greg Roberts @ 8:01 PM